Friday, February 5, 2010 @ 11:17 PM
there'll be sun, sun, sun

I am so exhausted. So, so, so, so exhausted.
Sometimes I just want to lay in bed and feel nothing, to think nothing, to just be nothing.
Cross-country tomorrow (groan, mucho exhausting), but upside: hanging out with le friends and their friends (actually, idek who I'm hanging out with) after cross-country. Looking forward to cross-country tomorrow, even though I won't place or get any medals or anything, it's fun, fun, fun.
I aspire to wake up in the morning feeling like Sean Combs, but I have doubts that Mr Combs wakes up at the crack of dawn's ass.
Till next time, loves ♥

Tuesday, February 2, 2010 @ 7:29 PM
tonight is all about "we miss you",

You were supposed to play at my wedding.
I can't breathe now.

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Monday, February 1, 2010 @ 11:17 PM
i'm not some boy girl that you can sway
It means a lot to me. A whole fucking lot. I want to see this band, to hear them, to experience them live so bad. I can't even begin to explain how much my heart would absolutely break if I missed this opportunity. I missed Panic! At The Disco 2 years ago, and I regret it to this very day. I don't want the same feeling to last for a band I have so much love and respect for.
Call me demented, but I just don't know.
Nothing makes sense anymore, not really.
Trying to focus on homework, school, co-curricular activities, friends, family. It's a balancing act, I get it, but suck my dick, the only thing that makes sense to me anymore is music.
I don't know. Entering a phase in my life more commonly known as the 'identity crisis'.
Sometimes, do you just look in the mirror and ask yourself, "Who the fuck are you?".
I do that all the time. Because really, who the fuck am I?
I have no real talents that I can put to good use, I am not funny, I am not even half pretty, I'm basically taking up space and oxygen. A liability to the world.

▲ ▲ ▲ I'm too hipster for the world.
You can suck my dick.

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Friday, January 1, 2010 @ 10:16 PM
of tub-beds and all-nighters
So New Years was a blast. Went to Curve with Nad, Kai ampersand Hanna at 4pm via cab, watched Cirque Du Freak: The Vampire's Assistant to kill time. So much love for that movie, hahah. Later had an early dinner with Daniel and the boys at Ikea, pffft, all I ate was this really delicious chocolate cake thing. Then walked around aimlessly trying to kill time with Hanna and the boys. Fireworks went off at midnight, sans countdown so it took me by quiet a surprise. Stuck in a massive human traffic jam with people spraying that snow spray shit that smells like shit. I think I inhaled too much of that crap and almost got like, an asthma attack or something, seriously. Anyway, went to Kayu around 1 something with the aforementioned girls, plus Natt, and Nad's friends, Akif and Jimmy. Akif, Nad ampersand Jimmy left and the boys decided to take their place after 'feeling lagu', which turned out to be them "moshing" to house music or something, pfft, so lame haha. Yumchar-ed until about 3am, then went up to Fariz's room in Royal Bintang. Left his place for Taman Aman after almost falling asleep on the floor in front of the TV while watching Valkyrie because they wanted to skate (wtf, Inorite), had to pay the fucken cab man 30 bucks to get there. Waited for the LRT rollers to open at 6am, 'cause I suddenly had a craving for a root beer float, so we had a really early breakfast at A&W, then Kai, Hanna ampersand I hailed a cab back to Nad's place. Slept at 8, woke up at 1, dad picked me up straight to baby cousin's birthday party in Subang.
Proceeded to bitch about people with my cousin, haha aww, I love you, man, even though you don't realize you have really gay tendencies ♥
And that your school most probably has more than "2 or 3 gay boys".
I was so fucking spent the whole day from the lack of sleep + having a root beer float at 6.30 in the morning + inhaling all that stupid spray shit. Wanted to die out of exhaustion, no shit.
All in all, it was a good way to end '09, and start '10. By the way, '10 looks so weird.
I love the start of a new year.
New beginnings, new experiences, new shit, new friends, new everything.
I'm really looking forward to this year, PMR and all.
Hey 2010, bring it on, bitch.

Tuesday, December 29, 2009 @ 4:43 PM
shh, quiet, you might piss somebody off

Jimmy Sullivan, you will forever and always be known to me as the guy who chased a duck around a field screaming "Fucking stallion duck!", and the guy who sang screamed back up vocals in Critical Acclaim, and the world's greatest drummer.

@ 2:43 PM
i was hung from a tree made of tongues of the weak

It had been 4 years since the release of their follow-up album to their debut, A Beautiful Lie. I thought they were retired (God forbid), but they were actually writing and recording for their new album titled This Is War. The night before it was released for download on iTunes, a download link to this album was released on Tumblr. Now, I am a huge fan of physical CDs, but when an opportunity to listen to the album a day before the rest of the world gets to? How could I pass it up?
A few days prior to that, I watched the new video of the first single from this album on TV, the song Kings And Queens. I must admit, it is a work of cinemagraphic art. The concept was brilliant, and who wouldn't want to see Jared Leto straddling riding a bike?
I listened to the album once, twice, and three times. And I really have to say, only a few outstanding tracks stood out. In order, it has to be the second track, titled Night Of The Hunter. How they started the song with a woman saying "The Night Of The Hunter" in French, La Nuit Du Chasseur, was so.. I can't find the word for it, but anything short of avant garde, in this day and age. The opening riff/beat of the song is really catchy, on the brink of being well, I don't know, club music? Is that what the call it? House? Whatever.
What truly acquires my attention in this song is the lyrics. With religious, hate, revenge, and even superior themes, this song is really an eye-catcher. Or ear-catcher? Lame attempt at humour was lame.
The next track that really caught my attention is the fifth track, 100 Suns. It's only 2 seconds short of 2 minutes, but the lyrics are really meaningful. Jared's saying how he doesn't believe in anything (not the end and not the start/not the Earth and not the stars/not the day and not the dark, you get my drift), but the beating of our hearts. How does your heart not melt, honestly?
The next track I liked is called Vox Populi, Google tells me that it means "Voice Of The People" in Latin. It actually lines up with the title of the album, if you listen closely to the lyrics. This track is also full of things I love - rhetorical questions. To think of it, it probably is a calling to everyone to fight the modern disease of the mind. I suppose?
Decipher it yourself, all I am saying is, it's a great song. Heck, it's a really good album.
Oh, and just saying, I totally skipped the track called "Hurricane", cause Kanye West was featured in it. Jussayin.

Monday, December 28, 2009 @ 12:42 AM
somehow everything's gonna fall right into place

Happy birthday, Hayley Williams!
Thank you for medicating me with your hypnotic verses, and inspiring me with your astounding voice, and definitely being so dorky and serious at the same time. So this is probably irrelevant, but I've always wanted to be like you, haha yes.
Anyway, happy twenty first, and I hope you have a great one. I hope Chadball keeps you happy!

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